The Weight of Possession: How Letting Go Opened the Flow of Abundance

For as long as I can remember, I’ve had a habit of collecting things—sometimes obsessively. If I liked something, I needed more than one, as if quantity could create security. It started when I was a child, spending long hours alone at home, playing with my dolls. They were more than toys; they were my friends, my comfort, my safe place. And so, I gathered more and more of them, surrounding myself with their silent companionship.

As I grew older, this pattern didn’t disappear. It transformed. Instead of dolls, I accumulated objects—things that felt like extensions of me. I wasn’t just collecting; I was emotionally attaching, as if each item carried a piece of my soul. Possessing them made me feel safe, as though the physical presence of these things could fill an invisible void.

But recently, I looked around and saw the truth. I had too much. More than I needed. More than I even used. My space was cluttered, and so was my energy. I decided to clean up, to give things away, to lighten my load. Yet as I started sorting through my belongings, something inside me resisted. It wasn’t just about the objects—I was confronting the deeper attachment beneath them.

The Spiritual Imbalance of Holding On

Astrologically, I realized something profound: my Jupiter sits in the second house, the house of possessions and wealth. Jupiter expands whatever it touches, and in my case, it had been expanding my tendency to accumulate. What I once mistook for abundance was actually excess, a form of hoarding that disrupted the natural flow of energy. Instead of allowing things—and money—to move freely through my life, I had been stockpiling, creating an illusion of security while unknowingly blocking the very abundance I craved.

It was then that I had an even deeper realization: nothing is ever truly ours. Every object, every resource, every bit of wealth is energy in motion. When we take more than we need and hold onto it out of fear, we disrupt that motion. I wasn’t just collecting things—I was hoarding energy, keeping it from circulating to others who could also benefit from it. In clinging to these objects, I was clinging to scarcity.

Restoring the Flow

I used to think giving things away was about decluttering. But now, I see it differently. It’s about restoring balance. I had been taking from the collective energy, from another version of “me” in this vast, interconnected universe—another soul who might have truly needed or cherished what I had stored away. In learning to let go, I’m not just freeing up space in my home. I’m unblocking the flow of abundance in my life.

Money, like everything else, is energy. And when we grasp too tightly—whether to possessions, relationships, or wealth—we create stagnation. The more I let go, the more I realize that true security doesn’t come from hoarding. It comes from trust. Trust in the universe. Trust in the cyclical nature of energy. Trust that what I need will always come when I need it, as long as I keep the flow open.

A New Kind of Wealth

This journey of releasing isn’t just about physical objects. It’s about breaking the illusion I’ve carried for so long—the belief that holding on would make me feel safe. That the more I had, the less empty I would feel. But the truth is, no amount of things could ever fill that space inside me. Because what I was really searching for wasn’t outside of me—it was something I had to find within.

As I let go, it feels like I’m peeling back layers of myself, piece by piece. Some things are easier to release, while others feel like I’m saying goodbye to an old version of me—the one who thought she needed these things to feel whole. And yet, with every item I give away, I realize I am still here. Still whole. Still enough.